Reading 'Exciting Times' by Naoise Dolan!

This is a post I've been very excited to write for a long time - a sort of 'reading process'/review of Exciting Times by Naoise Dolan! It was published in April and selected as the first book for the Maisie Peters Book Club, which I thought I'd take part in since I've always wanted to be part of a book club.

WARNING: most of this will contain spoilers for Exciting Times, but if you skip to the 'To Conclude' section you can see my overall thoughts without spoilers.

Going in to reading this, I don't know very much - I'm assuming it's about love and relationships, and I know the main character is an Irish woman in Hong Kong. I've been hyping this up in my head ever since I ordered it, and I'm starting with pretty high expectations, but I am slightly unsure that I'll enjoy this if a relationship is the focus, since I've already said on this blog that I don't like romances and can't relate to them, having never been in a relationship, or that interested in them.


DAY 1:
The book arrived today, and it looks really cool. I bought it along with The Diviners by Libba Bray which I've been really looking forward to reading for ages, and I've heard amazing things about it.

The book isn't as big and intimidating as it looked in photos, and the best thing about it is definitely the coloured pages. I would die for books with pretty covers or coloured pages.

I'd also like to note that I painted my nails in the colours of the books (or the closest I could find) which is probably the most on brand thing I've ever done.

This copy is signed as well, which is a nice thing to have in a book, and makes it more personal - I'm not that fussed, but maybe that counts for a couple of quid in the £12.99 I spent on this. I've also just realised that it's hardback, which is another thing I said I hated in my last post, but it gets a pass because it's not out yet in paperback and it looks cool.

One of the first things that has attracted me is the comment on the back that this is similar to The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath. That book was one of not many this year that I loved, and was genuinely excited to be able to read every day, and could really relate to. That was maybe more for the narrator's characterisation, and the mental illness side of things, but it was still amazing.

First thoughts: I only read the first two chapters today because it was quite late, but I've already made a fair amount of notes. A quick summary of this is we meet our protagonist, Ava, and her first love interest, Julian the London banker, both living in Hong Kong. Ava is teaching English grammar to children, which causes her to reflect a lot on language, because she's Irish and doesn't technically speak 'proper' English (London English).

The first thing - I hate Julian from the first page. He's a sexist Oxford twat who thinks London is the most important place in the world. It's also quickly established, to me at least, that the Ava isn't perfect. She keeps seeing Julian for his money, she doesn't object to the school's racist hiring policy, and she seems to have a bit of a 'not like other girls' mentality, although I have to admit it seems to be more critical of the views towards women than women in general.

I'm starting to get hints of that sarcastic social commentary that I was excited for - 'they only hired white people but made sure not to put it in writing', and am enjoying seeing aspects of Irish culture that I hadn't been aware of.

I know I can't really make any valid judgements from the first 6 pages, but I'm looking forward to reading more tomorrow.


DAY 2:
Today I read all of Part 1, and it isn't the end of the day as I'm writing, but I want to get my thoughts down before I move on.

In this section, Ava moves into Julian's flat rent-free because she hates her flatmates (for no discernible reason) and basically spends all 88 pages acting as Julian's slave, and meeting his friends (she hates most of them but especially the women). At the end, we find out Julian is going back to England for an unspecified amount of time, but Ava is free to keep using his money and living in his flat.

As much as I despise Julian, especially because the first few chapters seem to be painting him in a worse and worse light, and he treats Ava like a maid and/or sex slave, I really dislike Ava too. I'm not sure if it's because of her hatred of everyone and everything, the fact that she seems to think she's not like other girls, or her complete compliance with how Julian treats her. I know it can be difficult for women to get out of a situation like that, and Ava is crippled by the fact that she's broke, but she knows she can challenge Julian and still doesn't. I also completely agreed when Emily (supposedly a bitchy character) says 'you can't drop everything for a guy' and Ava gets offended - but, like, she's right! Get some independence!

This isn't a criticism of the book, because I don't think we're meant to like Ava - I'd love to know what Naoise Dolan has to say on the topic. Ava says she's a feminist but doesn't act like one; the narrative is full of an irrational hatred for women, and every conversation she has with a women (apart from one on p49) is about men - 'Exciting Times' isn't doing wonders for the Bechdel test.

Something I thought was notable for the future was the ambiguity around Ava's sexuality. The story is told in first person perspective and everything is clouded by Ava's own thought and judgement, but whenever she is asked about it, we see her verbal response written out without any additional commentary from her head, where we're accustomed to seeing all of her thoughts in every situation. Even though I can assume from reading the blurb that she is bisexual, I still thought it was an effective literary device which leaves us wondering when in the story Ava will be able to explore her sexuality. I mean, you won't be wondering long since the next part is subtly titled 'Edith' - I wonder who she'll end up with next?

I thought the sarcastic commentary about politics, capitalism and Brexit really added to the story, especially the bashing of Leavers. The political discussions are a little less clear to me, because apparently Julian's dad is a socialist but they're both the biggest Tories I've ever read about? How can you go to Eton, be a banker and believe in the redistribution of wealth?

It gets to the point where Ava acknowledges her relationship with Julian is abusive - 'if he wanted something it would probably harm me' - and still doesn't leave? She's still attracted to him? Maybe it's just me, but these capitalist Oxford pricks are not my type. At the end of Chapter 8, my notes say:
I hate that Ava blames herself for being mean to Julian when he is worse to her. Are we meant to think this? And his reply, which doesn't even really accept the apology but acknowledges his own superiority, makes him the worst. I hate that she puts all her worth into this terrible guy who sees her as an entertaining slave. She is literally his manic pixie dream girl.
Maybe it's not the most eloquent way to put it, but the last sentence really sums up my thoughts at this point. I also realised here that the reason I hate Julian so much is because I know him; I've seen his character in real life, I've had arguments with people that probably identify with him, and this made me appreciate the characterisation, even if I hate him.

Something else I noticed was that the other characters had to be absolutely 100% the worst for us to be able to understand why Ava stayed with Julian. In comparison to his friends, Julian seems like a kind man who is helping her, but that can only be achieved by giving his friends various combinations of the worst personality traits possible. I'm hoping Ava will eventually come to the conclusion that Julian is a terrible person, otherwise I can't accept the message being sent by the story - settle for a man who treats you like shit?

Something that made me laugh is the fact that in a story set in Hong Kong, all the main characters so far are somehow white. I feel like it takes effort to write a story in an Asian country and not include any Asian characters. Of course, the children she teachers are from Hong Kong, but her friends and even her enemies all seem to be white. Why go to the trouble of making Madison a girl from Texas? Couldn't she be from Hong Kong? I understand white expat communities mainly stick together, but come on. One of the things I was excited for in this story was characters that POC could relate to, and a variety of representation (having read on, I know Edith is Chinese, but it really took 17 chapters to get there).

So those are all my thoughts on Part 1, I'm excited to get into the rest tomorrow!


DAY 3:
I got to page 165 today, and preferably I would've finished Part 2 but I spent 6 straight hours copying out notes.

To sum up what I read today, Ava meets a lawyer (???) called Edith, and they start to go on 'dates'. Ava likes Edith, but doesn't know if she's gay, so spends a lot of time worrying about that. Eventually they kiss and get together, and Ava doesn't tell Julian.

I won't lie, I didn't really like the book yesterday, but today it started to pick up. I'm actually starting to like Ava now, probably because Julian and his friends aren't there, and the only two other featured characters are Edith and Miles (Julian's dad who is somehow a good guy). Ava is less negative about everything, and I'm loving being able to see her development in teaching as well as her trying to figure out how to tell Edith she likes her.

You can tell I'm having more fun reading this section because of my lack of notes. I'm not pointing out everything I hate, or trying to scramble to write down everything I like just to prove I do like parts.

The commentary has become more frequent in this section, almost as though Ava feels able to talk about feminism and sexuality and class now she's out of Julian's hands. Also, I can really agree with her socialist views.

I wouldn't say Edith is perfect - if I hadn't already seen Julian, I would probably hate Edith - but at least she listens to Ava and actually cares about her, unlike how Julian goes out of his way to prove he doesn't care about her. She's still quite snobbish, from a boarding school and then Oxford, so something we're left to consider is why she's different to Julian. Is it her race and sex, and the discrimination she's faced because of that? Is it her pushy parents, and the fact that she's still had to work hard and not been fed everything from a silver spoon? Is she just naturally kinder and less arrogant? These sorts of considerations kept me hooked while I was reading.

DAY 4:
I finished the book today, and it got very strong towards the end, but the final chapters were quite wishy-washy. Towards the end of Part 2, Ava accidentally texts Julian saying Edith is her girlfriend, and promises Edith that she won't keep having sex with Julian when he comes back. In Part 3, Julian comes back and meets Edith, and it's underwhelming. Miles survives a heart attack and Julian is shaken by it, so Ava agrees to keep living with him as friends even though she promised Edith she'd move out. Edith is hurt by this and threatens to break up with her, and in a moment of weakness Ava ends the relationship. Julian is promoted and has to move to Frankfurt, and Ava agrees to go with him (on pain of homelessness I think? Even though she earns a decent wage?). The last chapter was really confusing - she calls Edith and then chases her through a train station, and then the book ends before she reaches her.

All the characters become more likeable in this part. Julian is humbled by the fact that his dad has a heart attack and Ava is no longer willing to just be his sex slave. We see some of Edith's vulnerabilities during the argument leading to their break-up. The strange thing was, even though Ava has really irritated me the whole way through, and she was no way in the right during this argument, I was rooting for her. I wanted Ava to get a happy ending without having to rely on anyone else, and I wanted her to be happy. Some of the reviews I've read say there's no change in her throughout, but I think I did feel some sort of shift, even if it wasn't obvious.

I have very mixed feelings about the ending. On the one hand, I understand that it leaves it open to interpretation. Something I appreciate about an ending like this is it highlights that the story wasn't really about the romance, it was about Ava's self-discovery. A quote I highlighted was 'there are theories one could form about who'd really helped me change' - and it was this point I realised Ava needed both Julian and Edith to be able to become her own person. It took Julian tearing her down and teaching her insecurity, then Edith building her back up and showing her people can love her, then both of them together in the final part teaching her kindness and empathy. In a way, this love triangle works because they all need each other. I complained a lot about how much I hated them all at the start, but now I can see it was necessary for their character growth, because by the end I wanted the best for them.

On the other hand, the ending was a real cop-out. Not only was it confusing, but in a book where the main conflict was her choice between Julian and Edith, the ending needs to conclude with an actual confirmed choice, otherwise the rest of the book is unnecessary. It felt unfinished - like it needed one more chapter which featured a final conversation with Edith and then a decision on whether to go to Frankfurt or stay in Hong Kong. The whole 'it's up to you to decide where she goes' really doesn't do it for me, it just felt lazy and like the author couldn't make a decision.

TO CONCLUDE:
Overall, this book was good stylistically, and the tone kept me engaged. There were certain little details, like Ava typing and deleting text messages, that brought me into the story and let me relate to her character in small ways. The plot could've used some thickening out - there's nothing that interesting about seeing Ava sitting around in Julian's flat, or drafting out message after message to Edith, all of them saying pretty similar things. I wanted to see some subplots, like her relationship with her family, or her progress as a teacher, which was abandoned to give more 'screen time' to the romance.

Her progress in teaching was touched on, and I loved seeing her feel proud of how some of her students were improving, until it was all blasted to shreds at the end when she suddenly decided she didn't like being a teacher. It really took away from that progression of her character, because she started off hating teaching, and I thought we'd get some development there but we didn't.

My favourite parts by far (and from what I've heard, most people's favourite bits) were when Ava explored language, and what it means to be Irish. It provided most of the relief from the romance, and never failed to interest me. I'm from the north of England, so we don't always get our grammar right, and it was thought-provoking to consider English grammar and how as native speakers, we're so unaware of it. It was very James Joyce-ian in a more enjoyable way than his gibberish (no offence).

I can see why it was compared to The Bell Jar, because the tone and personalities of the main characters are similar, but the failing was that while Sylvia Plath dealt with mental illness and suicide, Naoise Dolan just discusses romance and class anxieties.

But the question we're all asking - was this book worth £12.99?

No. Maybe £7 at most. It was quite middle of the road, I didn't love it but I didn't have any real problems with it. I'll probably read Dolan's next work because I liked her witty writing style and sarcastic commentary, and I do think she's a good writer - the plot was the downfall. However, I am open to the idea that I'm reading this at the wrong time. I've had no experience with relationships or post-university struggles. Hopefully I'll keep hold of my copy of this, and plan to revisit it when I feel like I'll be able to relate more to Ava.

Finally, I have some questions for Naoise Dolan (who probably won't read this), and anyone else who's read the book:
Do you like Ava as a person?
In your head, who does she end up with?
Do you agree with me?
Leave a comment, let me know!


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